a poem

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My mind is humming like a song on repeat,
A song that keeps yelling 'would you just go to sleep',
But when I'm exhausted and tired,
My brain won't press pause,
The reason I don't need it,
is also the cause.

There's this song in my head and I don't know how to sing it,
I can't play it or write it,
and I certainly can't beat it.
It likes to come up in the worst of worst times,
When I need to sleep and rest and close my eyes.

The song in my head is singing so loud,
I toss and I turn,
But I can't get it out.
It's love and lust and hurt and joy,
It's like life on repeat,
Playing me like a toy.

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