yellow socks.

 Sometimes you gotta turn the music up so loud you can't hear the world, and lay on your back with you feet in the air to get a new perspective of life. I think we are all caught up so much in what other people say and think that we forget, we can do WHAT EVER we want! No one owns you, one persons weird, is another's normal, one persons crazy, is another's reality. They're all going to judge you no matter what you do, so if you can't ever be right... how can you be wrong?

We saw her, we sure did. But never did we have her, everyday, she'd be long gone, further and further. She had bigger dreams, bigger plans, a bigger life beyond what you saw on the outside. And this stupid little cage town, wasn't  possibly strong enough to keep her in

they told me the sky would sing, the clouds would shine, the ground would spin and life would laugh at the worries of the fast coming future. So I literally waited for the clouds to glow in the sky at night, looking up the the stars that seemed to be dancing without music. But never did the music come and never did I realise until just now laying smack bang on my back, that he swept the ground from beneath my feet with out warning, spinning not just the ground but the world and everything inside my mind along with it. Making the stars dance at double then triple time. I was down, fallen for good and that was when I realised, it was all just a metaphor for falling in love.  

What do you say when there's nothing you're allowed to say? What do you do when you don't know what to do? Do you break your life in half stick it in two hands and hide them behind your back singing eeny meeny miny mo? Or try the hardest you can to keep your life in one piece? What if the rest of your life relies on that sacrifice you make? You can't just live your life starting at that stupid dotted line! Your either gonna cut it or you're not, and the stupid part is, if you love something enough you piece that line back together, tiny bit by tiny bit, no matter how long it takes. A change is as good as a holiday they say... but you can't have a holiday without a home to come back to. 'Too young to understand', 'Old enough to know better.' You mustn't cry, tears won't do anything except smudge your mascara and make you feel silly. If life doesn't overwhelm you, your lying or aren't quite human. Decisions only make you if yo

I find it very comforting that no matter how far away someone is, if you both look into the sky at night, you will see the same stars.

I think the worst devil inside you, is to take someone for granted.  Life is cruel the way, it dulls the smiles as soon as there's a single tear.  Blinds you with the good so the only thing shining through the cracks is the tiniest mistakes. It makes your problems so clear but your mind so blurred. Like all the memories left on the sand washed away with a single wave, one wave too big, caused by one tiny little tear,  back to the start,  hole in my heart, breaking everything apart. Angels are all scared away with a dainty drop of rain, too cold outside they say.  But you don't just hold my hand, you hold my heart and my angel in.  You embrace my devils, and the bad things because devils cannot be scared away, Not with a cold day, Not with bad weather,  They're there forever, and you hold me together. 

And so I cried. Not because I was sad, but because everything was so perfect and it had to end.

Woke from a dream, Sweet sweat from the seams. Shaking hands, tipping the world.  Tried explaining, wrote backward words.  My hands, like shattered glass.  The stars, so sharp, so harsh.  As you looked at me, oh those eyes. I smiled but cried.  As you slipped away, smooth and slow. But our finger tips still let go, Melting thoughts into fears, so mean,  Thanking my shattered stars it was just a dream.......

Everyone is powerful if they know how to use their power. We all have the ability to change the world, if we let ourselves.  The superhero stereo type is the kind who protect the people and save the world, but before you can save the world, you've got to save yourself. In this battle, self respect is your most important weapon, the power is inside you! Beyond the sparkle in your eyes and the smile on your face. Discover yourself to discover your powers, to discover your powers all you have to do is trust yourself, love yourself, be yourself.

For the last forever I thought you were so perfect. But now I know better, and I know you better. I've realised your not perfect, your even better. Even better than better. I will know this for longer than forever.

the times when nothing matters, not even life! Because in this very moment the past is long gone and the future doesn't exist, its right this very second that makes the world, the very earth I dance on, the air I breathe in, the life I taste on my tongue, the music fades away, same with the crazy words rolling down my spine and the shivers in my mouth......... just you. only you, shaking the sky, pinning my body down to the world but leaving my mind in the sky, holding my universe in your hands, in this very second. In this very moment. for him. @ 10.41pm... everything i never said.

We live in a world of white pillows, underwater cameras, ice cream parlours, roller coasters, movies, parties, beaches, mountains, snow flakes, tree houses, chocolate fountains, waterfalls, krispy kreme, poetry, strawberries, fluffy socks, cozy beds, popcorn, dance, laughs, spinning chairs, bathers, puppies, photos, crystals, music, tumblr, stars, wishes, glitter, books, love and dreams and you cannot find one reason to be happy?

So mad my breaths are like tornados spinning past my flaming thoughts, so bad I wanna just  blow some people out of my life. My chest, it hurts. The tears fall out like bucketing down rain, I'm surprised I haven't caved in yet. The anger slides down my last nerves like lava dripping painfully slow down the side of a volcano, just as red, hot and firey. My stomach turns like a hurricane, destroying anything stable, strong or sturdy inside me.   thinking straight is not an option. My eyelids are heavy, my soaking eyelashes weigh them down. How could you expect me to think straight when I can't even see straight? I'm building up on the inside, like falling snow. My world has just collapsed taking me down with it. Like an avalanche, buried deep past my knees in rage. Now I know why natural disasters are named after people.

You think you know, and yet you stare cluelessly into my eyes making it painfully hard to not grab your face and kiss you so, so much... you have not a single clue how you've changed my hopeless life to a dream come true, and my organised mind to such a beautiful mess, you have no idea the light I feel bursting inside me every second I'm with you and the smile on my face when you remind me how lucky I have come to be. You think you know, but you don't. I have never felt this stupid before, so obsessed, so impressed. So so so, in love.

Word: 'Amplify'. Everyone dreams of standing out, being noticed, being heard. When I want to express myself, be understood or even just heard, I'm loud. But all speaking loudly does is make people stop and look. It's someone's vibe that makes them stand out in the crowd.  When their passion screams louder than any voice and their love dims the noise. So I'm gonna amplify my heart for the world to hear it beat, amplify the happiness to stream through everyone that catches a smile, Amplify my dreams to stretch beyond the sky and amplify my love for the world to stop and look.

" its happening again, the bubbles. making me float! not literally but ooohhhh i feel like it. everything comes so smooth, so easy, like im breathing chocolate flavoured bubbles out my mouth everytime i speak. it floats around the room and lands on my toes making the energy rise from my feet to the top of my head. i can feel the world spinning beneath me, it calls my name. my knees tip. i can see the sky. my head, it spins. like the ground! faster an faster... my heart, thats going fast too. i think theres excitement exploding inside me. it hurts a bit. like not having something you want so desperately. get it out, get it out! the party in my chest the music in my head. so loud, so loud. i cant think anything but... happy, happy so so happy, so dizzy, oooohhhh so dizzy! "

This horrid long, rainy winter swirling around outside the window makes me shiver just thinking of stepping beyond my room, and all of a sudden life gets so overwhelming. Like all this rain is flooding my motivation up into a big useless puddle, drop by drop. The idea of standing out, is stupid when slouched on this couch I'm struggling to stand up, thinking about my future is the least of my worries when I can hardly get out of bed in the morning. But staring out at the gloomy day through the frosty glass made me realise, I can't expect to skip all the puddles in life, because you'd end up missing a lot and even though wet feet aren't pleasant, jumping straight in is so worth the splash.

Must everything have a reason?  Must everyone have an explanation?  Must everywhere mean something? Must nothing mean nothing? When someone asks you whats wrong, and you assure them it's 'nothing'. 9 times out of 10 its something.  Why when you say 'nothing' you have so many things on your mind, and when you say 'something'.... its an excuse for 'nah, I got nothin.' How do blank pages speak louder than novels of useless information?  White lies,  Black hearts,  Black clothes and white minds,  Grey dreams.   How does a mind set completely change a person?  How can you try so hard to change and stay exactly the same? Why does the right thing please people, and we all dream of the 'wrong' things.  Who made the rules? Why did we decide it was right to follow the rules?  What even is the right thing?  Why are we picked on for being different, awarded for not being the same...When no ones the same? Why is it so

I've been trying to write, I really have. But I have lost my mind along with my thoughts as soon as you look at me, and for the first time in forever I'm at a loss for words because there are simply no words to explain you. You... Well, my feelings towards you. Which have no explanation except for the fact that the more I look into your eyes, the more thoughts I have that I can't seem to put into words, but the less I can breathe...

I dance to escape the un answered questions, forever wrong answers, fears and worries of life. Because, everything stops until the music does...

They're constantly asking me what I want to be, and yet the more I try, the harder it seems. I want to be a ballerina, a writer, a performer, a singer, an editor, a photographer, a superhero, a supermodel. But the truth is I don't wanna be anything... I wanna be everything. I wanna wake up in the morning and decide, so the next time some one asks me what I want to be. I will say, I want to be happy.

You had me smiling, You caught me staring, You made me blush, I started caring. You had my heart stopping, But my thoughts never, Took over my dreams, Didn't leave my mind ever. You got me talking, A little too impressed, You caught me falling, A little too obsessed. Was in your arms, With one tiny shove, Your lips touched mine, You had me in love...

Have you ever felt like you have so much to say that nothing comes out, or you are so tired you can't sleep? Maybe, your thoughts are so loud you have to keep silent to keep up or you're gonna explode! So many questions that can't be answered, so many lies that can't be made up for. So many decisions you can't decide, so little hours, yet hour long seconds. Filled pages, empty lines. Feelingless emotions, emotional words. What an organised mess these days have turned out to be. Do you ever feel so damaged? Find yourself lost? Good. It's called life :)

Somewhere between my head and heart there's an entire universe waiting to be discovered, but the worst part is no ones knows it's there and as hard as I try it's impossible to explain.

Never hold on too tight. The harder you pull, the quicker you fall when you're forced apart. It's simple physics. 

Love is like.... You can get chocolate topping and milk, or chocolate milk. Weather your meant to be or made to be doesn't matter because, if you put in the effort it tastes good in the end no matter what.

Completely psycho, Utterly insane, Majorly high, Truly happy.

Silence to me is one of the most unique things in life. Being silent. Even though some days you struggle to not speak for 30 seconds, you all know what I mean. Not just literally not speaking but being silent and calm within your self. Have you ever been laying in bed thinking about something so hard and next thing you know, you find yourself waking up the next morning? Well, that's what I mean. Being so silent and caught up in the moment, the world fades away and before you know it hours have passed. Sometimes silence puts me to sleep, other times it keeps me awake, sometimes silence screams louder than all the crazy thoughts running through my head, But the best kind of silence is just silence. Simply being so empty everything floats away, even the silence.

Why is it so bad to love a lot? I thought loving was a good thing. 'Fall in love with as many things as possible.' They say, and then judge you for the things or people you chose to fall in love with. I chose to love, and I chose to love a lot. Because it seems the only alternative is to hate. Would you rather be a lover or a hater?

Sorry for the lack of posts over the last few weeks, I've just recently returned from my amazing holiday in Thailand! Collecting lots and lots of inspiration and new ideas... What is your idea of paradise? Relaxing by a pool, your face in the sun? Crystal blue water, salty hair, sandy feet, room service? Maybe, late nights and loud music, new people, new friends, new experiences? Living life to the fullest. Or shopping, walking, looking, photos, memories? Well all these things are great, But my idea of paradise is the bed I can snuggle up in after a long trip, the walls I can cover in new photos and memories, the people I can tell my new stories to, the place where nothing is unfamiliar. The place I call home.

I know what people mean when they say 'take caution' but I think there comes a time when you can be too cautious, too careful, maybe worry a little too much. But 'caution' can be mistaken for not doing anything. Not doing anything out of your comfort zone. But let me tell you something, your comfort zone is there to be challenged. You have a bubble not so you can stay inside it, but so you know how far you have to jump to get out of it. I know sometimes I can go too far... way too far. But I'd rather step over the line than stare at it for the rest of my life.

I live for the day I run up and jump on you because I missed you so much, the day I can say 'go away' and you know I mean hug me tighter, when you can look into my eyes and say 'shut up' because you know exactly what I'm about to say. The day I have no words left, nothing left to say no way to express how I feel, because I am truly and completely speechless just by seeing your smile.

If you had 1 more day to live, 24 more hours to shine as a healthy human being. What would you do? Where would you go? What if the more amazing things you do the healthier you get, the happier you are... the longer you live. Who would you spend time with? Who would you kiss? Who would you admit all your feelings to? If you run out of things you love to do, imagine even crazier things...Do them all again. That's how you should live everyday. You don't know when your life will run out, could be tomorrow. Could be in 37 years. How could you possibly know? So to stay happy, Each day make time for 1 thing you love... 

We all lose something as we grow up, sometimes it's energy, sometimes it's pointless games, friends, obsessions, creativity, laziness or even common sense but the good part is, more often than not it's replaced with something better, something that builds you into the person you are. In my case I gained my heart and lost my mind and I would never turn back.

Nothing's working out? Nothing goes to plan. I stare so hard at the books but they don't float in to my hands, I do the things I love and strive to impress, But without a fairy godmother I may never get my dress. I'll sit straight, eat healthy and be mature all I can, But it's difficult to be responsible when you look up to Peter Pan. We all wish for a life just like the books, I've learned that sometimes you should forget about the looks. Take the time to laugh and appreciate beautiful things, Because not every princess needs all the bling. Be who you are, say what you think, Life can pass as quick as a blink. Who stumbled down the steps and lost her shoe? She thought everything was over, just like you. So when you're stuck in a rabbit hole just think about... Maybe not everything is suppose to work out.  

You know how sometimes your just happy? Not because something amazing happened or because everything is rolling perfectly, but you all of  sudden have a rush of happiness just coz? Well that's how I fell for you. I just had this uncontrollable feeling, like, neither of us did anything amazing and things certainly aren't 'rolling perfectly'... I just love you, Just coz.

''Look in the mirror, that's your competition.''

I'm laying on the floor, not frowning nor smiling, just thinking... I've never been one too think to much about the past or worry too much about the future which is most the reason I never get my homework done until last minute, but when you get caught up in the present you do exactly that. You forget priorates and things that should be done and do what you want instead of what is right. To me, love is the present. The reckless decisions, the crazy moments, the deep feelings it all gives me a rush in my heart, scribbles in my mind and butterflies in my tummy, the thing about living in the moment is you forget your homework is due in the morning. You forget that it's going to hurt you, your love or both of you in the future. So the question I'm always left laying on the floor thinking about is, Is it true love to hold on tighter or just let them go?

I have a lot of things in my mind, some are thoughts, some are feelings, some quotes, some stories, some people, some conversations, maybe just a few words, risks, questions, dreams, but some are just things. Like my bedroom, theres little things shoved in the corners or stuck behind my bed, little things that I don't have a place for, but just can't get rid of or maybe too lazy to do anything with. There's still a reason I don't just chuck them out. Sometimes I look around for a bin in my mind, but realise theres a reason we can't throw out memories, mistakes or just 'little things' because they are all part of the forever unfinished jigsaw puzzle called experience.  

It’s that kind of thing that is warmer than the beaming sun shining on your shoulders, plays louder than the words of the music passing by your empty thoughts, it’s more calming than  the little breeze of air tangling the salty spirals in your hair. A deeper feeling than when you fall off the jetty and float down and brush your feet on the sand and yet it passes quicker than dropping a pebble in the sea. No one see’s it, no one speaks of it but we all feel it when it's there. It’s called happiness. My torturously talented nuisance of an amazing brother took this gorgeous photo today at Gabo Island! Please check out his work >>>>>  http://instagram.com/lrprojects/?modal=true